All People saw was a woman

I took a walk at the beach today...All people saw was a woman

No one looked at me today like I was a fool, no one took a double take and no one thought anything to be strange at Pompano Beach. I no longer thought that a laugh I heard somewhere was about me; because it wasn't about me at all. Nor did I see anyone starring or gawking because no one was. I am a woman and no one knew anything but that truth.

I have come to discover that God was using a divine paint brush on my stroll and all that people saw was a work of art. Like a tapestry of heavenly female-beauty, I have been woven into what my insides have known all along - I am a lady. Other beach-goers knew I was, but more importantly - I knew.

Jennifer Cohen-Taylor

I also came to the conclusion that the earth is a much prettier place every time a transgender woman is discovered. When she/I begins to blossom, a field of colors erupts and the world glances on - they lose their breath. As a past and former conceived notion now becomes real and factual on the outside. Internal beauty now manifests itself on my life - a former wanderer. Beauty and dignity joined and visible - it is a beautiful thing. People who once made fun, now applaud the happiness of the transformed me.

I understood the power of pretty and the contagion of confidence. I saw and felt how one, who was a former dysphoric, was now a present-day wonder. I grasped how finally I was becoming more real by the hour. My body conforming amazingly as estrogen sends it message.

I am indeed a woman - female with far more than the absence or the presence of a genital sign. I am a lady -beautifully crafted by divine artistry. With every day I see the display of happiness from the inside out.  Awesomeness rising to the top from an inner truth; my heart and soul.

Today my walk on that beach made me more joyous than I had previously been. Dysphoric transformations -whole and complete. Pretty personified - grace and elegance. What will tomorrow hold as my body conforms? No one knows. But one thing is indeed certain - I will be more pleased and more happy than I was the day before. My walks on the beach will be even more glorious as no one sees anything but a beautiful woman walking.

Much Love -Jenny Taylor

A Transgender Woman Says Goodbye to Dave and Hello to Her New Life

A Transgender Woman Says Goodbye to Dave and Hello to Her New Life

An Explanation...of a man who was and a woman who now is because of him.

Dave is who I used to be. Many loved him and so did I. He was my knight in shining armor. He kept Jenny hidden and safe from people who hated or would harm a transgender person. He was strong and tough. He could laugh and sing and make people laugh. Women fell in love with him and so did I. 

But one day Dave's job at protecting me, Jenny, was over. He watched over me for 44 years. It was time to say goodbye to Dave and Hello to Jennifer. One night Dave went to the beach at night. He had just ended a 1 year and a half relationship with the woman he loved. He wept on that beach and the tears were tears of sadness mixed with joy. Fear mixed with anticipation. It was a new beginning and a wonderful departure.

Dave left us that night. You may have known him and loved him. But I think you'll love him even more as you realize the great sacrifice he made for me. He was willing to fake being a man so that one day I could be a girl. He was willing to get married and do things that he had no idea at how to do as a man. Yet he tried and did so for me. He loved me that much that he was willing to be miserable to protect me. He was sad almost everyday just for me. I will never forget him.

But Dave is no longer with us. We all have to let him go. Say goodbye. He would want you to love Jenny. His passion and reason for living. He would want you to dance with her and sing with her. He would want you to love her and embrace her. He will never be back.

I live my life now with wonderful memories of the past. I now however have to be faithful to Dave and all he did for me. He gave his life so that I could be a woman forever. I have to keep my word to him and never ever go back.

Goodbye my friend - I love you and I thank you for allowing me to be me -Jenny Taylor

Thinking and Wondering... a Transgender Wish

Thinking and Wondering... a Transgender Wish

One of my favorite songs called "Over The Rainbow" says this:

"Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me...Where troubles melt like lemondrops away above the chimney tops, that's where you'll find me".

As I meditate upon my life and how much of it has already past me by as the wrong gender, I sing this little song. Hoping that one day my troubles will all melt away and be far from me. Not that I am one to think my life is in trouble or that I am not happy. I am content and well overall. Yet, there are a couple things that I wonder about.

I know I am in a transition -Male to Female. My journey is in full swing and full time. Day by day I am becoming more feminine and much more pretty. Maybe not like CISgender women, but pretty comparative to what I used to be.

I think about a future day when I am about as beautiful as I will ever be, everyone arrives there at some point. Who will want a mixed up person such as myself? I know I am all woman. But will I be seen by a potential suiter as a hybrid - a pseudo blend of not one or the other sex. What person will want such a one as me? I do think about it.

Maybe my chances at love and being loved are all gone. It could be that I won't have another to hold and to hold me. Have I exhausted my opportunities? Sometimes I say yes. Other times, I declare certainly not! Time will tell.

So I wait and allow my pretty-self to form and to ready itself for a happy future. I sing my little song.

"If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow - why oh why can't I?"

Hopeful -Much Love
Jenny Taylor

Full Time Transition into Womanhood: Is it Worth it?

To go through all of the humiliation of watching your face and hair and body morph into a correct gender can be agonizing to say the very least. To endure the looks and the cruel words is damaging and painful. But someone asked me if transitioning to the correct gender was worth it all?

You better believe it is!!!!!!

I am finally becoming - transitioning into reality and what I have been trying to convince everyone of for my entire life. My body is proving what people refused to see and acknowledge about me. My body is displaying an accurate picture of who I have always been. I am finally conforming to a proper body image and expression.

It was well worth the pain and the humiliation of looking like a guy in a dress. It was worth looking like a fool as my hair would not grow fast enough to look feminine. It was worth giving away all of my man clothes and having to buy a whole new wardrobe with hardly any money. It was worth skipping meals and food just to get those clothes and my meds for HRT. It was worth it to lose friends and to lose family over my reality and being the real me.

I have no regrets and I would never go back or change a thing. Every trans person who has ventured and dared to be real and the right gender would tell you the same thing as I have said.

I am Jenny - a woman and becoming more so on the outside each and every day! Come what may. I will live as the true me - a woman. I refuse to be anything else. I will push forward no matter what. I will be on the outside what I know is so true on the inside.

I am a butterfly and I am beautiful. I am who I have always known I was, but it is only now that the mirror is finally justifying my existence with a proper display.

I have made up my mind to live and be Jenny. No one will stop me, not even me.

Jenny Taylor

"You Look So Pretty"  Transgender Dreams Come True

A friend told me this the other day. Such simple words yet they meant the world to me. She looked at me and the sweetness of her voice was like music. A song I have always longed to hear from someone - anyone and never heard it.

How can four words change your life so? How can they make you feel like you have attained a lifelong dream? I have heard so many others get those four words said of them and I stood there longing and was left unfulfilled.

But now this person actually said it to me - about me. Me? Four little words a caring soul said to me. "You are so pretty". The way she said it - her heart. I will never forget that feeling as my ears made love to my heart. My soul dancing in ecstasy as I finally believed it was true.

My life will never be the same just because of a friend and four little words.

Jenny Taylor

You cannot outrun you...Be Yourself

Try your best, you cannot avoid the real and genuine you inside. You go to bed with you, live with you and go to bed with you. Your true self never goes away and it is always there.

So why not allow who you really are to shine? Your reality is unavoidable and if you fail to succumb, you die the slow-death. Why die when you can really live?

Be you and stop your running. You cannot outrun your destiny. The faster you go, the quicker your future will arrive. You can do this. Come out and be you - the real you.

Much Love - Jenny Taylor

Past Wife, Girlfriend and Others...I was really a Woman the Entire Time you Knew Me

Watch this must see and genuine video blog an a transgender woman who has no regrets but is sharing a heartfelt confession.

Jenny Taylor -Transgender and Genuine

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=drJ9Z79HS_g

Watch my Video Blog on Youtube

http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCAQzZUidckrXWhYjnjLH3SQ

All kinds of great videos about transitioning and the transgender life I lead.

So you have Hit a Rut - a Plateau of Sorts in your Transition as a Trans Person

Wow, Jenny I see all the changes you are going through and others and I look at my journey and all of a sudden, my transition is at a stand still. Yes, that day is on the road for every transgender person on HRT. 

Hormones are little message carriers that travel to cells that listen for that message to grow. Tissues for the breast, hips, skin, hair and other body areas respond to a massive surge when you first begin taking hormones. But then a time comes they tell me when things are slowed way down. A plateau where you level off. Every girl knows what I mean several years after puberty. You get your breasts pretty well developed and your hips are shaped the way they mostly will be etc.

You want an initial growth spurt. Remember you and I are or have gone through a kind of self-induced puberty. But puberty isn't all massive growth it tapers off so the body can build upon what puberty started. This is what you may be seeing as a rut or a blah-stage. Like all the excitement is gone.

Puberty is fun but good cell growth is slow and body shaping and maturation take time and need to be done in a slower process. Don't look at this time like you have all of a sudden lost your momentum. See it as a time where cells in rapid growth have given you a foundation now to really start the adult phase of your transition.

I was telling a very dear friend of mine this about her life. Look its depressing to see stuff slow down, but puberty has to end and real growth needs to start. Now is the time to refine what you began. Make better what you did initially.

Work on your wardrobe or your makeup, your voice or your mannerisms. Take your mind off of the genetic and the biological and let your body handle that part. It knows what to do. Focus on other things that make for maturity. Move from a girl to a woman. Improve on what hormones and you have begun. Now is that time.

Look, I'm no doctor, but I try and study and look ahead and plan logically. You have to if you're transgender. You must be prepared at all times. Everyone has to grow up. Get excited again by focusing away from the hormones and the breast growth stuff. Concentrate on other things and get your mind off what slows you down.

I love you and I hope that is a help to someone.

Jenny Taylor

The Mirror - A place to Hate and a Place Where Dreams are Made of for a Transgender Female

Mirror - You used to be my mortal enemy.

How is it that now I look into you as a magic portal? A place where dreams finally do come true.

Irony at its best.

Mirror you used to Lie to me. Tell me I am a man when I was not! You spoke to me with delusions and confusions. I hated you!

Today, I am looking past the glass and the reflection. I see into my own heart - my soul. I see the woman I have always been rising to the surface. Like a rainbow of wonderful bubbling to the exterior. The place where all the world see's that I am not a fool. The place where I am finally justified in my conclusions of my gender.

I am a woman. I knew I was a woman. Now, I see that I am a woman. My life will never be the same. Ecstasy personified in reality. Beauty manifested in truth and vision.

Jenny Taylor

jennifercohenhappy@gmail.com

Transgender Fear and Bliss

Have you ever been so happy to be alive that you fear that it is all a dream? A vision you have had our entire life and then one day you will wake up. Like a cruel trick played on a poor soul who used to be so miserable. How can something so precious and so wonderful end?

I hold back the tears as I see beauty unfold before my very eyes. Sometimes I feel like a fragile flower that could be crushed by a strong wind. My petals blown away and never to be seen by me again.

There are no words to describe my joy and my happiness. Please God I beg of you to never let this cease in me. I have spoken to you so many times - weeping, wailing and heart broke. You heard your little girl and today you have blessed me. You have given me a treasure that is beyond my thankfulness. I have no words to appreciate what you have done so I do so with my radiant smile. I love You for what you've done for me.

I sit here and I am amazed. Transformation that can only be divine and scientific. Genetic and Spiritual all at the same time. If this is a dream may I sleep forever in this bliss that is mine.

Much Love - Jenny Taylor

Jenny Taylor

The Good News Keeps Coming...Transition Nirvana

I was just at Walmart in the cutest little outfit that was pink and blue. I had my hair up and under a hairband and hoop earrings. Matching plumb Coach bag and Sandals. I was rocking it girl.

Not one person turned a head in "freak out mode" nor did anyone laugh at me. Usually I used to get a snicker or two. Not anymore! 

I was in the intimate section getting a bra and I took my time. No "Fly-by's" like before. I was so at ease! Finally normal. People nicely said "excuse me Mam" if they were in my way. Men glanced at me too in my shorts. OMG what a feeling.

The Cashier said "Mam are you in line?". I proudly and sweetly said "yes". I think every trans woman gets to the place where she is "passing". I hate that term because I am never going to pass only. I AM a woman. I am female. No passing required thank you.

Ok, here comes the great part. I was in line and ready to leave when an older gentleman was behind me and obviously interested if you know what I mean. At first, I wanted to roll my eyes and say "oh no, not another one" (Ladies you know what I mean), but then I said "oh be nice to the man, he's sweet. The guy said "Wow dear, you really have a lot of things. Is that cart heavy for you?" OMG what a line. Anyway, I said in reply "Yes it is". I batted my eyes (hee hee).

I was having too much fun! The man then said "Well it looks like you have it all covered". Now whatever that meant, who cares. I paid for my things and just smiled as I wheeled my cart away. Don't you know I felt so great about myself!!!

Here is what is even more amazing!!!! The man was a guy I used to sing with at a church group! LMAO - wow! He never recognized me and he was hitting on me too. Ya-hoo.

But wait - There's more! No, the wolf, I left behind me. Such a flirt I know. Get a guy excited and then wheel off! LOL, that how I roll guys. I chase after no man.

Ok, I was making my way to the door and all of a sudden I saw my neighbor Cindy. She is so pretty wow. She looked right at me and passed by! LOL, I whispered her name behind her. She popped her eyes wide open and said "OMG, you look great!". She gave me the biggest hugs and said "Me and Geri are great with what you are doing!". I hugged her again. She told me she could not recognize me and I was so pretty.

What a day! One Walmart trip and a lifetime of wonderful encouragement. Transgirls listen to me. Go ahead and plan your transition well. Follow your heart and just be you- a woman. If you are a girl, then that is what will come out. A dress will never make you a woman, your heart and soul is the only way. A skirt is only icing on the cake. Make the cake great - there is far more cake than there ever will be frosting. Get it?

Ladies you can do what I have done. One step at a time and making it real and genuine. People see fakes a mile off. See what I have done and let it inspire you.

Much Love and Encouragement Always - Jenny Taylor

Human Rights Campaign in South Florida

http://www.hrc.org/steering-committees/south-florida

jennifercohenhappy@gmail.com

Walking my Roommate's Dog Just Affirmed me as a Woman...Being Transgender is Great

Ok, you will have to put up with a topic that is, well, a bit funny as it is unappealing - Bagging and throwing away dog mess. LOL yes that nasty function and what is part of normal dog ownership caused something fantastic to occur o the walk today.

I was walking Yogi, Jorge's dog. She did the usual and as a responsible neighbor, I picked up the "stuff". I made my way to a dumpster and threw the waste away. I began to walk away from that dumpster when I guess the landlord for that building yelled to me "Mam!". A smile came to my face and I replied in my usual lady-like way- "Yes?" She said that she would like it if I could use my own dumpster for that and not hers any longer. I said sure and then it hit me - She called me "Mam"!

I was so happy to see that I am really progressing quite well in my transition. I am a girl and I am not "passing" as some say. Heck I never just want to pass! I AM. I don't dress LIKE a woman, I am one.

So the point is this: Just be you. Be the real woman you are. I never have to try or act like, or copy. I am the authentic, the genuine and the real. So are you or you should be. Never settle for passing when you can be.

Much love - Jenny Taylor

HRC Stands Behind Transgender People...I am Proof

Here is a letter that I sent HRC National. I am on the Steering Committee here in South Florida and I just wanted to write a testimony about how HRC supports us as Trans people. All on my own and not one time asked by anyone at HRC to do this, I wrote, from my heart, the following:

Hello,

My name is Jenny Taylor and I am a member of HRC and on the Steering Committee in South Florida. I am a full-time transgender woman and I am a professional writer, LGBT advocate with an emphasis on Transgender issues and diversity. I reach over 2900 people on Facebook each day and use FB and other social media venues to promote HRC and our mission. I also use those avenues to bridge the gap between gay and straight people and their transgender brothers and sisters. I have a blog with hundreds of engaged readership each month. I have dedicated my life to LGBT equality.

I just wanted to take a few paragraphs to address an issue and also affirm my first-hand knowledge, that HRC supports the Transgender community 100 percent. HRC did not pay me nor did they ask me to post this story. It is my own desire to demonstrate that HRC has been nothing more than fantastic to me on a national and local (South Florida Steering Committee) level.

We all know of an isolated event in the past where a few people did discriminated against a transgender group in an HRC rally. I know of many transgender people who have written me directly or commented publicly, as an HRC "official" about this past event. The concern is still very much out there among transgendered people about HRC. I have been asked why I am still part of HRC if that "discrimination" actually occurred? I don't know first-hand of all the details about that rally, but I do know first-hand about how HRC has stood behind me.

Discrimination or bad actions against one of our LGB or T family should never have happened period. That is a given, but sometimes, a few forget this fact and cause division. The misconduct of a few bad apples should never have occurred, but HRC cannot be held liable as a whole and it's stellar mission and work tarnished because of a few people who should have been more accepting within in their own LGBT family. HRC has made its official statement and now let me tell you my unofficial testimony as to how HRC has been so wonderfully supportive of me.

I was asked to attend an HRC meeting in South Florida one evening by a fellow coworker. I went to that meeting and Andy Mcneil and all of the Committee members were more than accepting to me as trans. As I was offered opportunities to serve the community, I took full advantage and did my part. As I proved myself to be faithful, I was given even more opportunities to serve. They all knew that I was transgender and were actively seeking someone to represent us on the committee. HRC South Florida and HRC National would be sure to not forget the "T" in LGBT. I have been embraced and treated as an equal on all counts. I have excelled and am now part of the Political/Diversity Subcommittee.

HRC was one of the few organizations that I have been part of, where I as a transgender female and full time, could serve without any hindrance whatsoever. I fully express my gender as a female and I have been able to be in full transition at all events, or meetings conducted by HRC. Not one time was I ever discriminated against by any HRC member for being a trans female. In fact , HRC National sent a representative for our annual Steering Committee meeting to Florida and that person too, embraced me with equality. Locally and nationally I have been embraced.

Let me finish by saying that HRC has afforded me such opportunity,as a transgender person, to be fully active and to make a difference. I have a personal goal to one day work at the national office as a transgender female. I believe in HRC that much and I am that confident being transgender. That said, let my testimony in itself be proof that I am fully assured that HRC stands behind any transgender person. They fully affirm transgender people everywhere. I would never be part of this organization if it gave me any reason to doubt that.

Thank you HRC for all you have done for me as a transgender woman. I look forward to what it is that I can now do for you and the others we serve in the LGBT community.

Best regards,
Jennifer Taylor
Political/Diversity Subcommittee Member HRC South Florida

Comparison Shot

Jennifer Taylor - Formally Dave

You Know Me...

I am the girl next door. I am the one who has a glow on her face and a gleam in her eye. I am the one that puts a flower in her hair. I love gentle breezes and long walks with the one I love. You know me.

I am the lady who sings like a bird and smiles like the sun. I walk like a song and make music with every step I take. I am the woman you know. 

I am the woman you want your daughters to imitate. I am a blessing. I love to be pretty and I love to make you miss me. I am the girl who writes little notes to encourage you. I am the one you call when you're ill. I am a woman you know well.

I am the woman who laughs and listens to your stories. I am the one who hugs you when you're down. I am as beautiful as the bird of paradise and as powerful as a lioness. I am gentle as a breeze and as forceful as the wind. I am a girl you love.

I am Jenny. A Transgender woman who longs to be all these things and more to you and to those I love. My body parts do not make me these things. My heart is what makes it all a reality. I am the girl, the lady and the woman you know. I am a wonderful garden and becoming more beautiful with each and every day. But I am not the only one like this. There are thousands of us - women in transition. Works of art and the Master is still painting.

You know who we are or will if all you do is look around.

Much Love - Jenny Taylor

Interesting Point about the Bathroom...Deny Thousands of Transgender People to Save One or Two Non-Trans? 

A person on Facebook spurred an interesting thought in my writer's mind, about the concern over people abusing a law that allows any gender expression to use the bathroom of their choice. Laws that would benefit a transgender person greatly, are a concern to some, because some,  feel that anyone could abuse the privilege just to be inappropriate.

Example would be a pervert who "says he is a transgender" when he is not, just to be perverted and fulfil his desire to see women with their clothes off somehow.

Now could this happen? Yes. Would the statistics and probability of that kind of perverted person's actions become a huge number and actually happen? No. You may get one out of thousands to actually fake being trans just to gain access to a locker room or bathroom, but I doubt it. The probability would frankly be far too small to worry about.

You see the fear of something happening even once may be warranted. We might need to stop a law because of the danger of the possibility of it happening. We may need to stop a law to save the many. But in the case of a guy or woman faking being a gender to see naked people is not something to worry about.

We guess that one or two weirdos may go into a private place, like a dressing room, just to fulfill a fetish. Ok, it may happen, a pervert abusing a good law, but to stop a law that allows a transgender person or rather, thousands of them, to have a normal life and be perfectly appropriate is not warranted at all. Why deny thousands a right to stop a minute possibility of wrongdoing? The chances of abuse are so small that it just doesn't matter.

It's like us saying that no one can drive a car because there will be accidents and people will die. Ok, accidents happen, (much more than perverts abusing a transgender bathroom access law), yet we still drive and sell cars to people. People drive even though there is a risk. Risk is not a justifier for establishing a law or denying rights.

So to apply this to our transgender favorable laws, we must see that yes, there may be a weirdo or two who will no doubt abuse a transgender law to do evil. But why deny thousands that are trans a human right like using a bathroom because of the risk that someone will be a law breaker? I simply cannot in my mind mind see the numbers being in favor of denying a basic human function based upon a chance that someone may abuse a law. It must be assumed that any law will be broken, but to assume that masses of people will violate a "bathroom law" in dangerous amounts is not justified - its paranoia.

Just my thoughts - Jenny Taylor jennifercohenhappy@gmail.com

My gynecologist appointment today was great. About 4 months and the Doctor said that I was progressing very nicely.

Here I am at her office May 2013.

Ok, Don't Speak Up.....Nothing Produces Nothing

A saying to ponder from Jenny

 "If you remain silent when you should speak,

 then don't be surprised if what you did not say 

falls upon deaf ears" by Jenny Taylor

Ok my Friends a Clerk at JCPenney called me "Disgusting"

So I approached the clerk and asked if she was saying that about me? Of course I knew the answer, it was she who did not know that I heard the whole comment. She told me no, of course not. I would never do that she said to me. Hmm -ya right.

I then went on to tell her that "I was transgender and that it was really no big deal to be that". I also told her that "we have feelings and that we are not disgusting". I confronted her. It had to be done.

I was calm and very kind considering the rudeness. I was a lady. Just because people are mean spirited, it does not mean that we should yell and rant in return. It does not justify me or you flying off the handle in some rebuttal. We have dignity, self respect and pride. We conduct ourselves accordingly.

I left the store with resolve to call Customer Service and report this clerk. I did not one of you to go to this same store and then face this clerk as well. I knew hopefully (yet to be seen -maybe today), that JCPenney would make it right. 

I did call Customer Service and the representative apologized profusely. I still wanted more than just an "We are sorry Mam". I wanted to fix the issue and teach employees how to treat transgender customers better. I wanted respect for us as trans people when we shop. We deserve that. You deserve that. I hope that as this all pans out and I get a supposed call from managers today, that I have brought about some changes. All I can do is try.

Stand tall my friends and never give in to discrimination in places where you should have respect. Act appropriately and make a change for the good of us all.

Much Love - Jenny

New Shoes and a New Day...

Over the weekend I was able to get a new pair of black heels. Conservative and business friendly. I am pairing those with sleek long black pants and a blouse that's to die for. I am excited about being me today. But the thrill of being alive today is not because of my clothes. I have a genuine enthusiasm about showing the world my true colors.

Are you excited about being you today?

I'm not implying that a new pair of shoes will get you to love yourself, but I am hitting upon a point. You need to find something deep inside that you can make grow into something called a zest for life. A life loving excitement to get up and out of bed each day. New shoes again will never do this nor will a beautiful blouse, but a desire to be joyful will. A longing to dance and be thankful does. Things that are deep within you. Express those and see them grow like a field of flowers.

You can do this and when you do, even a conservative pair of black heels takes on new meaning when you wear them. The regularly dull and typical becomes exceptional because the real you is rising to the top. Find your zest for life. Live it, be it and show that to everyone. You are fabulous, you just can't see it yet.

Much love - Jenny Taylor

I think only a Transgender woman could Understand what I am about to Say... I feel Beautiful. OMG

Jenny Taylor

Celebrate Your Life While You Can...Be You even if it Looks Silly

I feel pretty for the first time in my life!

Jenny Taylor 2013

Before and After Shots of the Former Dave and the Transitioning Jennifer

Hate for Hate...Does nothing at All 

It is time for each of us, as never before, to take the flag and start waving that. To be us and individuals. To express ourselves in ways that must be shown.

Look, we all have a problem with right-wing crazy people who use cable news and talk radio to inspire the haters of LGBT. I get it. They are wrong.

BUT - Here is what I suggest: Making Converts

Making converts is when we stop hating those who hate us. Rather we get bold and use media like Facebook (as I do), blogs, talk, actions, whatever, to teach those who may listen. I know the freaks won't convert to see that LGBT is another acronym for normal, but there are a couple who will. These few are well worth the effort to convert.

There are many who have come to find that LGBT is not foreign but rather human. People like myself and others have taken the time and invested our lives to reach them with love and truth. I think now is the time to take advantage of the way the world is embracing us. Jump in the flow and help make the wave even bigger. People will only hear if we make a joyful noise. But if we are silent, the deaf will continue to be deaf.

Do a little, do much. Do something to show support or voice your life in a peaceful manner. Try to care about the ignorant who make our lives hard. We all want to hate back. It is normal. The best thing however is to reach the few by love and wisdom.

I don't know how I will be able to become more active for transgender rights and the LGB community, but I know that I have invested my life in that cause. I believe that karma comes back to those who love. Somehow, I will be able in ways that I can't imagine.

Today, I will keep my watch, say my words and lead those who will follow me. I will do what I can with what little I got. There are haters who need to convert and come over to humanity where the rest of us are.

Love much- Jenny Taylor

Tran·si·tion -
"The process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another"

That word transition, along with it's definition, is what describes me and others best. We are in a period of change. We are moving from one condition (male for me) to another condition (female). We are going from one state of unhappiness to another state of happiness. We are transgender.

I was at my Trans-Sister's house last night and we were messing around with my grey hair. I made the choice to color it to a pretty blonde. The dye set fine and my grey was gone. I changed my hair color to another because I am always working on my canvas -my life. Transitioning my body to conform to what is the truth within me. It may sound like a simple thing and of no real value, but making this color change is major as it contributes to the big picture.

Rachel and me were with her Wife Sherry and we had fun all night. Like little girls playing in front of the mirror. It was so cool to see how Rachel was transforming too. She, like myself, moving from one condition to another - transitioning, was making great progress. It is great to transition, but it is even better to do that along with someone else. Like a duo for transformation and cohorts for change, we joined forces to watch our bodies look more feminine. It was a ton of fun.

There was one point, and you ladies will appreciate this looking back to your teenage years, where we went to the bathroom and stood before a huge wall mirror. You should have seen us, two grown up women acting like teens and putting on our makeup. Trying this and messing up that. Doing well and then admiring our adjustments to our facial flaws. You may find it odd, but we were pretty at the end of it all.

I guess transitioning for those who are transgender is like an adult puberty. You change from a man to girl to woman. The move through those stages is fascinating and even exciting. Rachel said we are in the teenager stage. In many ways, I totally agree. Discovery seems to be whats happening. Our bodies are changing in so many ways and we are looking for those treasures everyday we wake up. "I wonder what my hips look like today? Hey, look at my breasts or my butt or my face!" Yes, puberty and discovery.

Transitioning is also a progression. Leaving the old, non-correct gender life behind and moving into what is correct. A repair job of softs. You are female, but you body is in need of adjustments or outright overhaul. That's why I dye my hair or take hormones. I use the simple and the complex to progress from one bad place to another great place. I become the real me.

Well, I better get along now. I have more transitioning to do.

Much Love - Jenny Taylor - a girl, and more so every day.

Jenny hanging out with her Sister Rachel...

As a Transgender Female you learn that the "Sisterhood" is all important to living out full time. You gain and give strength to one another.

Someone asked me...

Being Transgender is Stupendous - Happiness at Last

"Hi Jenny, How are you today?" My reply: "If I were anymore happy, I'd explode!"

It makes me weep quite a bit to imagine if I ever had to go back to being who I'm not again. If I had to stop being me - a girl, then I'd want to die. It really is that good to be the real me. To finally live as and be, not portray, a woman.

For once, I am balanced. I feel more and more normal. Even though many may see me as "abnormal", I assure you that nothing is more right than being myself. It brings a smile to my face, but there's so much more. My soul rejoices in it's Maker. I thank God that I am alive for maybe the first time. I sing more, laugh more and live life more.

My body is in transition now and it is hard to see it creep along slowly. The hormones are indeed changing me bit by bit. My body responding to the messages to feminize. Somehow correcting what went wrong in my Mother's womb. As if by magic -biologically, I am being teleported into reality - My reality.

I am a woman and it may not appear like it to you. All I can tell you is my body and my heart and my soul all know this to be true. All I know is that I am blessed and happy like no other. I trust God for my every breath and I thank Him as my face is bowed on the floor each day and night.

I deserve nothing and I ask for just a few things every now and then. I pray that I will always be able to help people. People like me. Normal people. Beautiful people who deserve love and a chance just like anyone.

Much love - Jenny Taylor (A very happy woman)

When will you finally be you?

Why are you doing and being what everyone else wants for you to be? You are dying a slow death and you don't know who you are anymore. It is time to make a serious choice to be who you know you really are. Time to take risks and be the man or woman you know you are inside.

Refuse the powerful voice in your head that keeps making excuses. You can be your greatest enemy. Wouldn't it be a great life where the guilt is finally gone? The shame lifted and the reality lived. Come on, you know you can do this.

Be you.

Jenny Taylor

How to Know if You are Transgender...

People ask me how did I know that I was transgender? Were my privates different or female or was there a defect at birth? You are transgender mainly because you know that you are a guy or a girl. Ask yourself the same question. Are you a boy or a girl, man or woman? Got your answer? 

It is the same thing for us. If you ask a transgender person what gender they are they KNOW. That knowledge inside them (me), is as strong and certain as it is for you. You would punch somebody if they called you a girl and you were a guy. The same for us. We know for certain about who we are and it happened when we were kids just like you.

You're a kid and one day, you just know that girls have germs and boys smell. You know who you are and you avoid the others. It is so natural. The same holds true for most of us. I knew I was a girl back around 4 or 5 I guess. No one asked me or said to me "ok, today is when you choose what sex you are Johnny". I just knew just like you did.

Hey, it was not based upon my having or mot having genitals? Neither was it for you. Kids don't care who has what part. It is not based upon what clothes I wore either, nor was it for you. You just knew and you hung out with "your kind" -girls with girls, boys with boys. The same with us.

all that is different is that the "container" all the above was stored in was not matching like it was with you. See what I mean? We are just like you, but the body does not match. They say the brain knows and has a sort of map of itself. You know from birth what it is that you are and all of the limbs that you have as well. It's a brain thing. Why our bodies don't match the brain's information - who knows?

I hope that helps people to get it. To understand that being transgender is not a sin or a fetish or some desire to cross dress. It is a real knowledge of who we are and it is exactly like you and the way you know. Are you sinful because you're a guy or a girl and live that way? Of course not. Neither are we. We are normal like anyone is.

Jenny Taylor